Thoughts on July 9, 2012

Been very busy past ten days.


Took a trip to meet with some of our investors and began serious discussions on how to fund initial expansion phase of the company. 


Meet a lot of really great people.


It is amazing, when you get away from the world of financial professionals and investment bankers and brokers and talk directly to the people in America that work hard, earn a living, and truly keep our economy afloat how nice and honest most people really are. 


I felt that after these last five days on the road talking to people about our project, our company, and what we need to expand and why I really do not want to have to give up control and ownership in order to secure the needed funding, I felt that these people "got it". 


I am optimistic we may be close to to getting that missing piece of the puzzle in play very shortly.


Of course, got back late Friday night and immediately woke up Saturday sick as a dog.


Today after three days of feeling like "hell" went to local clinic and tested positive for "strep".


Got massive antibiotic shot, a Z-Pak and stuff should start feeling better soon.


Lori is in the third week of her clinical trial using an Iniparib / chemo therapy that we are praying will shrink her metastasises and at least temporarily blunt the aggressive nature of her cancer.


She has an MRI on July 17th to see if we can get a determination if this treatment is having any effect. At the very least we are praying the lesions are not growing and it would be wonderful if they showed signs of shrinkage.


I am flying back to Maryland this weekend. I want to be there for the MRI on the 17th.


Saw that Ernest Borgnine died. Always loved anything he was in from "McHale's Navy" to "The Wild Bunch" to the last role I saw him, a small part in the Bruce Willis movie "RED". He was a convincing screen presence. 


On a more cheerful note, I have to say, I like "Anger Management", the new sitcom with Charley Sheen. Say what you will he is funny, convincing, and for me comforting to watch.  While "Two and a Half Men" may never be matched "Anger Management" simply "isn't bad at all". 


Existence is so much like the ocean. It comes and goes, individuals flourish and then are gone, but the vast body of humanity like the sea, remains constant.


I thought about Eratosthenes today, the Greek who in the third century BC using a measuring stick and an angel, calculated the earth to be about 24,700 miles around. 


Using similar techniques today we know the earth's circumference is 27, 902 miles.  Eratosthenes was a pretty smart fellow.


I have been reading at the buzz over the discovery of the Higgs Bosom or the "god particle" a tag line of pure hyperbole if there ever was one.  


It is impressive scientists have finally (they think) the missing piece,  postulated years ago to exist.


Basically this is the very elusive particle that if confirmed explains how matter acquires mass and how the universe is held together and if some are right may explain how this complex universe came from nothing via a "Big Bang".


I like science and think it really does give us insight into our our world of reality operates. That said, I have never seen the conflict between science and God as valid. 


Our world of reality is clearly not God's world of reality. 


It is amusing, (in my opinion), that some scientists ( and people)  are so loathe to allow for even the possible existence of God that having all of this, "the world, the entire universe, the complexity of life on this tiny little world alone, everything from "howler monkey's" to the possibly newly discovered "Higgs Bosom", having all of this develop from "nothing" is more comforting to their intellectual mind and reason than the possibility of "God" existing.


Actually thinking about it it may be less than amusing it is sad. I suspect as my Grandmother said, "we will never understand God while we are mortal so we simply must have faith and hope of God's existence".


For me, having God as the explanation as to how this all happened is a lot more rational than "it all started from nothing". 


Life is truly wonderful if you can accept that it is also filled with times of tragedy and grief.